Yesterday I stuck to my WW points. I'm so proud of myself. I was offered sweets but I said no. Yay! I think I might be able to do this. Tonight will be a real test. My hubby and I are going to a Murder Mystery Dinner at our church. I have no idea with they will be serving but I'm going to have to say no to it all to stick to my points again today. Wish me luck! lol Re-learning willpower is hard. Hopefully though It won't take too long and I can re-establish my good eating habits quickly. I'm off to the gym, BBL to post more.

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I'm The One Who... (Featured_Grownups)

·         I am extremely shy and quiet in person. I may smile at you but it's hard for me to start a conversation with just anyone. I'm more comfortable once I really know someone, then watch out! The goofy side of Jamie comes out but so does my heart. I get really attached to people and once I care about them it's hard for me to stop. I'm usually easygoing and who accomodates everyone else's needs before my own. I'm the one that does what I can to maintain harmony, sometimes to my own discomfort or inconvenience.

 

·         My appearance can be deceiving. I dye my hair random colors, have my tounge pierced, dress in alot of black. Most people wouldn't think I was the normal mom at first glance. I try to be myself but since I'm still finding out who I am so that's hard. So one day I look very soccer mom and the sorta goth. lol

·         I have discovered books again and I LOVE LOVE LOVE to read. Buy me a amazon gift card that I can use to buy a kindle book and I'm a happy camper. Ever since I found the Twlight Series when the 4th book came out, I haven't been able to stop reading. Check out my list on the side of my blog.

·         I love my Fast Combatives Class that I take at Family Karate. It's a great self defense class. It's only a hour long but I wish it was longer. It is a ton of fun and the class goes by super fast. Plus you get to hit stuff! yeah!

·         I am always tired weather I actually get to sleep through the night or not. I have to take sleeping pills to even get to sleep, plus I have low thyroid which even with my meds still makes me really tired all the time. I'm so use to being tired that I'm really good at hiding it. I just do what I gotta do and I don't let it stop me from anything.

·         I LOVE lean pockets. They recently changed their recipe to new one and it pissed me off because they ruined lean pockets!! So wherever I see lean pockets without the new symbol on it I buy them and as many as the store has. lol Yes, I am a dork.

·         I'm a starbucks addict. I'm addicted to Starbucks Mocha Frappucino Lights. I have at least one a day. (Bad I know)

·         I REALLY REALLY like sugar. It's one of my biggest downfalls when it comes to my diet. It's really hard for me to say no to candy or yummy cookies.

·         My life revolves around my kids. I have two amazing little girls whom I love so much! They are smart, funny, and full of life. And watch out, they do karate so they can kick butt! lol I feel truly blessed that I get to be their mom and watch them grow into amazing women I know they will become.

·         I love animals. Cats. Dogs. Birds. Etc. I'd probably would have a house full if my hubby would let me. But he won't so right now we just have fish and a Malti-poo named Callista. It is a little fluff ball that looks like a cotton ball with legs. hehe. She is super sweet and playful and I love her to death!

·         I'm a movie freak. I LOVE movies and probably own about 400. Maybe more, who knows. My kids have also caught this addiction although they are more into the kid movies of course.

·         I would love to be a night owl but no matter what time I go to bed I end up waking up early. Booo! I love staying up late and relaxing doing whatever. Mornings are evil but they always come so I usually go to bed alot earlier then I would want to because of my whole sleeping probs. I can't seem to sleep past 8am. Plus most mornings I gotta get the girls up and ready for school anyways!

·         I love my church and I love God. I go to the church at Rancho Bernardo. Its full of amazing people, love, openness, and caring. All of which the church I grew up in didn't have, at least not for me. God is amazing. I'm still on my search to decide what I believe about the bible and all that but I have always believed in God.

So, I have big time messed up. I stopped bloging. Bad. I had surgery on my arm over 9 months ago, Good. I stopped being focused on my weight loss and started eating like crap. Bad. I've gained weight back. :( Really bad. So here I am because I feel like my will power that I worked so hard to get is gone. I like a failure. I know that my thyroid meds needed upped but even so, I wouldnt have gained as much if I didn't love food so much. This sucks. I need to go back and restart but I'm not sure how to do it. If you have any ideas or suggestions please feel free to tell me! I need help. Why can't I just stop eating?! <sigh>